Hello there! It’s been far too long. I always try to start the year hopeful, full of joy and determination and ready to go head on. 2020 was going to be no different…or so I thought. This year has proven itself to be a testing year for me and I’m sure all of you too. Let’s catch up.
Quarantine has not been my favorite thing. I lost my job due to COVID-19. This meant for a period of time I had no health insurance…not the best seat to sit in for a person with pre-existing conditions. My anxiety has been at an all time high and so has my son’s because his routine changed so abruptly. During this time he lost two family members, he lost his in school social interactions and he was just really in a funk. How do you help your child keep it together when you’re unraveling yourself? Let me tell you, it is NOT an easy thing to do. There has been a lot to take in, a lot of adjusting, a lot of grief and a lot of processing. I totally felt like everything was falling apart and I was losing control and I was losing hope. 2020 has been for me a year to consider how I process loss and being alone.
I am not a super social person, I do, however, have some good friends that I like to spend time with and not being able to see them has been difficult. It’s good to have some adult interaction every now and then when you’re a single mom. The lack of that was driving me crazy. So I put in some alone time with God. I had begun to go for walks and just take it all in. One day on my walk, I saw a caterpillar. I picked it up, and put it on a leaf and carried on with my walk. Once I got home, I thought about it….how in the world did I see that caterpillar? There had to be something about that little encounter with this creature that was supposed to click with me…and then it hit me.
The caterpillar, MUST go through a transformation in order for a butterfly to appear. It must elevate itself, close itself off, and allow the power of God’s creation to do what it does. This is a necessary solitude.
As a Christian, it is important for me to try to never give up hope KNOWING that my faith is grounded in, on, and around the promises of God and because of this I won’t ever give up hope…instead, I have a transformed my way of thinking, I have learned to elevate myself during this time of isolation so that the transformation may occur! It is not a physical transformation, per say, rather a transformation of the MIND where the way of thinking and desiring to be has been changed and renewed.
I challenge you to consider this when it gets hard for you to be alone. Try changing your mindset and elevate your thinking to be transformative. The likelihood that you will lose some friends on the way up is inevitable. Be at peace with the fact that everyone can’t go where you’re going.
“And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.”
Romans 12:2 KJV
October will give us 31 opportunities to live life WITH intention (even in quarantine). There is no doubt that life comes quick and trials come (often without notice). Be intentional, be diligent, be mindful, be transformative, and always be kind.
Happy Living!
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